I Try to be Tough

I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing. John 15:5

I sometimes believe that I am stronger than I am, in which case my strength is non-existent. I have bitten the dust way too many times to believe that I am worth a dime in Christian Survival.

What I need is a continual extrinsic support which can be only found in Jesus, who with the cross reminds me every day of the meaningless of my efforts that are not centric to His will.

I spoke to a friend today, a fairly technical discourse in Christianity and Purpose, and I got a lot of insight; one of the key takeaways was the need to continually depend on the word for nourishment and fulfillment. It was refreshing to hear that from someone else, though I already knew it.

Look at the relationship between the vine and the branch, the Vine can totally do without the branch, but not the other way around. The vine supports the branch, which falls and withers if that resource is pulled away.

Essentially, I ‘don’t got squat’

I pray that each day I might draw strength from the Vine, without whom, I can do nothing…

Keep Walking…

By Tito Ndoka


Time Ticking Away

….See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise, Redeeming the time, because the days are evil. Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is…….. Ephesians 5: 15-17

I have this time tracker on my desktop called Hamster, works on Linux, it’s a pretty nifty tool; Hamster tracks your time and keeps reminding you of what you are currently working on, in case you want to change the activity to somethings else. It categorizes each activity and tags it appropriately, like who you were working for or the name of the project and so forth….fascinating!

It’s a little like how we should be tracking our time on earth. We definitely have a finite allocation of time, so the number of activities that we can do within our prospective lifetime is limited. This means that even if we do not commit our lives to God, whatever we are doing is still subject to time, subject to a terminal end, subject to expiry.

I like to think of God as a paradigm that traverses time, He sees time on a whole different scale. Think of it this way: When you are looking up a location of Google Maps, notice how you can zoom in to a location, then zoom out and move to another thousands of miles away without flinching? Well, that’s how I believe God sees time, it is not subjective, but a chronological database of events which He can reference at any time. I know this probably open a can of worms in logic reasoning, but in my mind, this analogy simplifies everything.

Seeing that we have limited opportunities to do what we must, in what fashion of dedication and commitment ought we to do so? I try each morning to remind myself of all that I must do, considering the time I have lost, never to recover. You know what’s worse? I wasted some of that time doing things that I ought not to have been doing, like a wasteful asset that not only renders itself useless, but spends an equal value of operational expenditure….

I’m not sure that I am making sense, but the concept of time is one that I will take seriously, waking up with the thought that I need to commit my life daily to the Cross of Christ, with which we redeem the quality of life, and lay up our resources in a place where time cannot subject, where the moth and the worm cannot find…

So, as long that I am subjected to the decay of time, I will keep walking….circumspectly, for the days are evil….

By Tito Ndoka


Iluminating my Path

Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. Psalm 119:105

You do realize that you cannot walk on a narrow path without light? Strike that, you cannot walk objectively without light, it’s the perfect symbolism for our Christian Walk; or perhaps it isn’t symbolism, The Word of God is an actual light that guides us into daily commitment. Without it, we are lost and scattered. It is our daily objective when we wake up, the influencer of all decisions, the guide to moral thinking and charity, yes it is indeed a light.

Imagine all the situations we find ourselves in daily, most of them that need constant decision making are not subject to a strategy or working policy, it depends on our judgment and discretion, and you would admit that more often than not, we regret some of those decisions. What we need is not a system of response, it is an objective outlook on all situations from an external influence, kind of like a gadget you carry around that collects all the data around you, and directs you to the best direction you could take in time, the Bible is kind of like that.

In my life, the Bible manifests itself as an authority in my mind, creating an influencial school of thought to which I can choose to subscribe to or ignore, unfortunately, I often choose the latter, which does not yield good results..

There are many verses in the Bible that support what the Word of God does for us, and most of them can be found in Psalm 119, a discourse on the authority of God’s word, a true illumination to my path..

Keep Walking…

By Tito Ndoka


Comes Down to one choice

“I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live:…” Deuteronomy 30:19

It’s really not that complicated, before us lies death, while God offers a viable and practical way of escaping it. Perhaps a lot of people have already given up in salvation, the prevailing argument is why all that trouble for destinies we do not yet understand. I would argue that it is fearful to be in death’s crosshairs, but I would like to emphasize how much better heaven is, where our existence was meant to always end up.

We tend to compare this life with the life that we culminate to if we are faithful to the end, this life is not living at all, we are constantly in the shadow of death, constantly responding to our baser urges, abandoning morality and principle for a figment of our imagination….. its amazing how we create an imaginary construct and stick to it… hoping that it comes to pass, what folly!

Personally, I know the pointlessness of any effort not apportioned by God, inasmuch as there is a possibility or realization of goodness or charitable deeds, it’s like polishing and finishing the wood for the fire, like tossing a gold coin into the deep, the same sentiment we have about the death of children….if you want to be a good person, excluding God, you would rather remove all your moral inhibitions, go crazy, you make no distinction at all in the matter of choice…

I have taken a trip in both divides, and what I found when I wandered in the darkness is nothing, there is absolutely nothing for my soul to feed on, no peace, no love, just an imagined construct of happiness and indulgence, I possibly depended more on distractions to keep my mind sane, there is no comparison, none…. I cried out to Jesus once more…. I Choose life once again…

God is keen to have us experience the love and joy He has for us, He yearns that we turn and choose life….

Keep Walking…

By Tito Ndoka


Tag each Day with its number

Yet you sweep people away in the sleep of death—they are like the new grass of the morning:In the morning it springs up new, but by evening it is dry and withered. We are consumed by your anger and terrified by your indignation.You have set our iniquities before you, our secret sins in the light of your presence.All our days pass away under your wrath; we finish our years with a moan. Our days may come to seventy years, or eighty, if our strength endures; yet the best of them are but trouble and sorrow, for they quickly pass, and we fly away. If only we knew the power of your anger! Your wrath is as great as the fear that is your due. Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. Psalms 90: 5-12

Yesterday I learnt about the temporariness of our situation on earth…we toil day in day out to make our lives more comfortable, we desire, buy, and desire more… but our hearts still yearn for something more…something greater.

Perhaps it’s because we do  not yet realize the seriousness of our condition, the deep mercies of God that have tolerated all we do in the dark, shameful acts that blaspheme against the savior, who through the ultimate sacrifice provisioned us with endless opportunity to seek fulfillment in the purpose for which we were made….

I guess it’s true what they say… Old wine cannot be put in new wineskin, or the converse, to everything is apportioned a purpose, a destiny, a culmination. When we finally die, that is when the true digression of purpose is perceived: We could have lived differently.

I would like to re-purpose my life, why should I chase after things that only change what God intended for my life? I mean, how bad can it be? God made me, he purposed me, so why should I disobey, seeing how temporary my existence is, or more so with the abandonment of His intention on my life?

I would like to number my days….each day tagged to its unique number, a reference and a testament to my intention to make every day count, to ‘seize the day’, as they say.

May it be so, May I wake up everyday with the intention of Pleasing and Obeying God.

I’m back, and I am taking the walk. Will you?
By Tito Ndoka



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Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning James 1:17

Our God has one face. His consistency, personality and reliability has never changed, He is still the same. Which makes His rock solid reliable.

I was watching a TV show last night, just before I turned in and I happened to note one of the comments made in one scene..

Relationships are based on trust…

That was interesting, cause statement was made in finality. Any relationship that is not based on trust is generally not genuine. I tend to agree with that statement, and which is why the greatest pain we experience daily is mostly caused by those closest to us, either they broke the trust accorded them, or we suspect them through  mistrust.

One of my favorite musicians once said in one of his songs that “suspicion is the new religion”  (Switchfoot, Selling the News), where a vast number of Christians basically have very unhealthy relationships, and there is little or no trust between each other. This could ether point to a lack of God in their lives such that trust is a natural dispense, or that we all know we have nothing in common, i.e., we are hypocritical.

Jesus once said that the world would believe us if we all be one.

Two cannot walk together unless there is a prior agreement. We cannot afford to be multifaceted, who needs that?

Show your real face and suspect everyone, or allow God to transform you to a trusting, reliable, uni-faceted person.

Let’s take a walk…


The Holiday….

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Come unto me all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls….. Matthew 11:28-29

Holidays are confusing, and sometimes because of my routine, I have no idea what to do with them. Today I woke up at 7am with a blank mind. Sometimes that is good, because my brain is always spinning with activity. Sometimes will really need to take some time off to chill out.

The rest that God offers is universal, such that at any moment we rely on Him, when we take up His cross every day, an overwhelming manifestation of peace is experienced….

The contemporary life we live commands us to work twelve hours a day, no rest, no time to waste while the sun is in the sky. While it may be a productive principle, one the best ways to get rest while at work is to allow God to steer your life in a direction fitting His will. Have  you ever thought of having a holiday while you work? Seems like eutopia…well it’s possible.

Resting is a state of mind. You can have time away from work, but that would not stop your mind from working, you would still need the rush of accomplishing tasks and checking off a list….

God gives us perfect peace, not only when we work, but when our minds are physically exerted and troubled, His peace manifests itself on a level above any platform we may call a holiday.

Keep walking.